The months pass by like leaves falling from a tree…
I cannot believe I have not posted anything since April and it is already officially middle of July!
I have always made it my goal to post once a month, to fill the pages of my journey into voice acting. But I think that thought process is where I’ll find my folly. I feel as though I can only update this “journal” with important news, when in fact, life is made up of tiny moments.
This blog is for me to look back on (hopefully fondly) and, if I’m successful (an even if I’m not), this is a venue that I would like to use to express my experiences into tips and advice for those newer to this career than I.
I am amazed that I have any followers and even though the number is dismal, I am still intimidated that what I put out will not satisfy. But that’s the larger issue of it all, hidden inside a simple blog – I do not have progress to report because I am holding myself back. I have so many ideas running through my head and they never come to fruition because I worry “what if I’m not successful?”, “what if people don’t like it?” and even more telling “What if people DO?”.
I’ve wanted to make a “cover” video, showcasing my range of character voices using already established characters from beloved anime and cartoon series. I’ve also been toying with the idea of creating my own simple “web series” where I basically just have fun with voice acting! I would start off reading fairy tales but I would branch out from there. So why haven’t I done them? Well, I do have a valid reason in that work has been tough on me and I am preparing costumes for the con season. But truth be told, I could set aside some time if I tried. So why don’t I try? Fear.
Fear of updating this blog too much with too little and losing the few followers I have. Fear of putting my heart and soul into a project and still being ignored – or worse, put down. Fear of auditioning and never getting so much as a callback. Fear that my dream won’t come true, after all.
But what is my dream? Do I dream of Fame? Fortune? No. My dream is to act. My dream, is to bring characters to life. To entertain people. I would be lying if I said I didn’t want to be able to support myself financially off acting but to me that’s a bonus, not the goal. And who doesn’t want acknowledgement that what they’re doing is appreciated? I think anyone who has any motivation to succeed in their career wants that. (Promotion, employee of the month etc).
My dream is to act and with today’s technology, I don’t need a stage or a live audience to do that. I just need a microphone, And as luck would have it, I just so happen to have one! =P
My posts have been a lot of me walking around in circles. I think I can already give out the advice to not do this, Do not second guess yourself. You need to believe in yourself because until you show the world what you can do, no one else can believe in you. Never let your passion burn out -that’s a dark road to walk and it personally took me years to find the light again.
Do it for you.
I’m going to take my own advice. Granted, I am still busy with other things – both positive and negative – but my goal is to be excuse-free by September. And then I’ll really have some things to post about!
For now, I will be posting what little of acting I’ve been up to and then hopefully sometime this week, I will get around to posting my adventure in acoustics and studio-making!